All Good Things Come to An End?

Nothing just happens, you just put in the time and when things line up you might be lucky. Recently Google emailed me asking if I was interested in sharing my story on how I get so many views on our restaurant reviews. A paid trip to Cali to talk about my journey. My heart sunk. This journey had two people in it and here I am alone. I can’t even share it with who I care for most.

School was almost over. I was excited to see new chapter with my soulmate. Never had I expected that our challenges would not be considered worth working out.

Honestly

Today I went hiking by myself. I haven’t hiked by myself in a long time. I finally felt at peace and then I got cold so I had to go back inside. I wish I didn’t come back inside. Buildings, people and mostly anyone that loves me gives me grief.

Farewells and to the Woods

You are over there.  But sometimes you are here.  Within one visit we knew the bartender and owner by first name basis.  You are far away but it works.  I have not found the time to do anything but study the forest. 

The Mei Affect

I thought you said your name was “Ray” like a ray of sunshine. You were just supposed to be another name on my contact list. We were going to volunteer our time making the world a better place. The plans were altered and now in addition to volunteering, I spend my time picnicking in the woods and sharing pâté, crusty bread and IPA’s at the local market with you.

Before I knew you, I was content being by myself. I had embraced the hollowness inside my chest as normal. I spent my time alone in coffee shops and took pictures of my travels for people I did not know. Now I take pictures of empty plates, and often I am so wrapped up in the moment I forget to take pictures.

I made plans before I met you. I had looked forward to solitude in the woods. I still look forward the next chapter of my journey. But I will miss sharing these moments with you.